Along this journey a lot has changed and evolved – especially Boo. If you have followed our blog at boorowdy.com (Dog Food For Thought) you know as we tumble down our Rabbit Hole, a recurring theory is Boo and me have a soul purpose – some things to right in this walkabout that were very wrong in others.
Also recurring is I am here to help “save” her from yet another tumultuous and angry, confusing and sad walkabout where bad decisions were the only decisions. I feel that is true still, though now, we have had a change of status putting me on unfamiliar ground. I have gathered enough knowledge from my Farm work and friends there to realize quickly this new status needed to be molded or all the hard work we had done in our prior six years would go down the toilet quickly.
Laurie has been helping us understand this new world order and deciphering Boo’s signals. I find myself back at square one and a whole new way of thinking with Boo – we both love the work. We have shiny new keys in our hand and doors to be opened to learning an exciting new take on offered behaviors and the evolution of our relationship and most importantly, what we need to do to keep things positive. It’s fun, frustrating, crazy to grasp sometimes, simple as all get-out at other times, challenging and cool as shit.
Our situation isn’t something anyone dreams about being in though it does not mean that there are no dreams to be had and no accomplishments to be made. I am learning to read a whole new side of my Boo and found all new things to be proud of her for – new experiences and knowledge that makes me wonder again about those first fourteen weeks before she came to us. The work has also made me look at myself all over again – I realized I continue to “assign” to her, I understand I got “comfortable” and had to reassess my behaviors toward her – conscious and sub-consciously – in this new phase of our life.
Watching Laurie work with Boo is one of my new favorite things. It’s amazing how much can be learned sitting quietly, focused and open to receive while observing. How Laurie is able to read Boo and challenge her – something that Boo thrives on – all the while explaining to me what is happening as they work together – is so cool. I dig it big time when my light bulb goes on as she talks. We love our homework and are making some good headway.
Although having cancer treatment is not what I would even remotely consider fun, tough times are in my cards for at least the next four months. It is imperative to me to make this downtime productive in some way and find a way to deal with the harder sides of it – to find that purpose I am always saying is out there – to trust the process.
I believe much of the purpose of this journey for me comes back to Boo and what she is teaching me. I spend a lot of time thinking about this new beginning and the stuff Laurie is working on with us. It’s a good, interesting and positive path to travel and I think it is going to lead to something very big at some time and place down the road physically and spiritually for us both.
Hopefully the chemo and surgery is going to give me more quality to the time I have left in life and to use this experience to develop – without malice, angst, impatience or anger – an understanding that to everything, there truly is a season and a purpose under Heaven.