Cancer is hard.
Sometimes the word roars and other times it whispers. It can also be more of a feeling like a stark and weighted silence.
You become tired of explaining it so you stop. You are pretty sure that everyone else is tired of hearing about it or avoiding you. You think you can live every day as if it is far away. After a year of not being able to explain it well, it is time to try to sort through the noise again. You realize your explanations are never going to be perfect.
The best way to live a good life as a cancer patient is to develop cancer patient patience. It will help you to not take your condition out on others – and learn to come to terms within yourself.
Acceptance is the first step to all the right things. Understanding you can never really explain this experience where mortality walks with you daily while carrying a lit lantern can help to stave away selfishness.
You are left vulnerable and raw, your old you a distant stranger. Even if you return to life “cured” you will never be the same.
At the end of the day know you did the best you could today and gratefully look forward to tomorrow.